Why do I feel so lousy still

Or why do i STILL feel so lousy?
Sigh..I dunno.I feel sick man.
Yea,job could be one of the reasons.
I really wanna spend my days working at a small cosy pastry shop.Days could be simpler and yet..sweeter perhaps.But again..I am so..unjustified since my last wrongful termination.I wanted to get a job and throw myself into it and really prove my worth to them.

But is that what I want?I hate this working world.So political and complex.So dangerous that you cant help but go with the flow and find yourself changing(horribly)

If the working society is sick,you cant stay sane in it.

And of coz this is only one of the reasons.I leave other reasons to be unsaid.Only Yng knows.

She has her fair share of woes,and I pity my poor ol' sis.

Why cant we get to somewhere to start afresh all on our own?
If life is a learning journey,sometimes it is just too pain to keep learning and learning.